may I at least carry, to the boundless possibility contained in the abyss of everything, the glory of my disillusion like that of a great dream, and the splendor of not believing like a banner of defeat; a banner in feeble hands, but still and all a banner, dragged through mud and the blood of the weak but raised high for who knows what reason - whether in defiance, or as a challenge, or in mere desperation - as we vanish into quicksand. no one knows for what reason, because no one knows anything, and the sand swallows those with banners as it swallows those without. and the sand covers everything: my life, my prose, my eternity. i carry my awareness of defeat like a banner of victory.
Art is a journey into the most unknown thing of all - oneself. Nobody knows his own frontiers… I don’t think I’d ever want to take a road if I knew where it led.
Louis Kahan
Louis Kahan
Et je me cache ainsi derrière la porte, pour que la réalité, quand elle entre, ne puisse me voir.
Je me cache sous la table, d’où je fais peur, brusquement, au possible.
Si bien que j’écarte de moi, comme les deux bras d’un même embrassement, les deux sortes d’ennui qui m’étreignent – l’ennui de ne pouvoir vivre que le réel, et l’ennui de ne pouvoir concevoir que le possible.
Je me cache sous la table, d’où je fais peur, brusquement, au possible.
Si bien que j’écarte de moi, comme les deux bras d’un même embrassement, les deux sortes d’ennui qui m’étreignent – l’ennui de ne pouvoir vivre que le réel, et l’ennui de ne pouvoir concevoir que le possible.
I hear the wind blow,
And I feel that it was worth being born just to hear the wind blow.
And I feel that it was worth being born just to hear the wind blow.
I am nothing.
I’ll never be anything.
I couldn’t want to be something.
Apart from that, I have in me all the dreams in the world.
I’ll never be anything.
I couldn’t want to be something.
Apart from that, I have in me all the dreams in the world.
To be great, be whole; exclude
Nothing, exaggerate nothing that is you.
Be whole in everything. Put all you are
Into the smallest thing you do.
The whole moon gleams in every pool.
It rides so high.
Nothing, exaggerate nothing that is you.
Be whole in everything. Put all you are
Into the smallest thing you do.
The whole moon gleams in every pool.
It rides so high.
